If it wasn’t obvious at this point throughout my blog, then I don’t know how else to put it. The goodness of the Lord is not only seen but also felt because there are certain blessings that comes randomly or are strategically placed in our lives. Anything that makes us smile is in itself a blessing because the Lord knows how chaotic and evil this world can be. To reiterate, when there are blessings in sequence, it is hard to ignore what is going on. One after another, things are going well and at one point in time, we’re content with how life is going. Blessings that occur randomly are always welcomed and they are normally sensed/experienced when we need a break from reality. When we feel congested with tasks that need our immediate attention and they have to be fulfilled by a certain deadline, we zero in on our issues instead of looking at the bigger picture.
We are Overthinking and stressing on future events when we should really be focused on taking it one day at a time. Focusing on the moment and being present should not be overlooked just because we are anticipating our future. But we’re only human so to NOT be stressed about something is rare. However, when we do manage to catch a breather because of an unexpected blessing, we realize (or at least I hope we do) that the Lord had a part to play in that. In whichever way blessings come, we should always recognize them and be thankful.
Going back to looking at the bigger picture and these past few months that contributed to me being inactive on my blog site, I understand that the Lord has been working in my favor when I do not deserve His love and kindness. I have not really been living up to expectations I have for myself when it comes to running this website and that is unacceptable. In my hiatus, I have been preparing for life changes that are not only drastic in nature, but these changes are unchartered territories. It’s new and I am most likely facing them alone. I am currently applying to law schools that I perceive to be a good match for me and some of these law schools are thousand miles away from my family. They range from Arizona to New York (most of them of California based though). I’ve always wanted to do something that was meaningful to me and I think becoming a Lawyer is a profession that will not only challenge me mentally, intellectually and spiritually, but it will open my eyes to social injustice issues that needs to be eradicated or at least alleviated for disenfranchised individuals who are at the end of their ropes when it comes to the legal system and the fight for equality. But before then, I had to take the LSAT (a pre-law exam that incoming lawyers should take in order to be considered and admitted into law school. The GRE is also an alternative).
This journey has been a long ride. I started studying for this exam at the ending of December in 2020. But before that, I didn’t know the LSAT existed. I was under the impression that I just apply to law schools the same way I apply for my undergrad. I basically didn’t give myself enough time to study for the LSAT because of my ignorance and with this whole coronavirus thing going on, the process through me in for a loop. My anxiety started getting really bad around this time because studying for the LSAT is an exam that I have never taken before. There are answers for certain questions that seem reasonable and/or sounds just like the one above it, but apparently, their trap answers. It had taken me months to even understand what I am reading because the passages on the LSAT were convoluted (on purpose) and some of the background information provided were just irrelevant and/or confusing. But at the same time, the LSAT and these past few months has really opened my eyes to what it is like to think critically and focus on specifier words such as which, into, with, because, until, who, etc. These little words and how they are used throughout the test has to be tracked and remembered because they are just as important as their bigger counterparts. Even though this test was stressful and I had THE worst testing experience the first time around, the LSAT has really made me a better reader. Instead of glancing or skimming articles or books, I intently read with the purpose of analyzing what the author wants me to know, what they are not telling me, and what is their main conclusion. I would say my improvement in digesting and paraphrasing what I read has enabled me to be an effective reader. But wait, there’s more!
The LSAT was an intriguing, stressful journey and I completely immersed myself with my studies, with the hope of scoring well so I can be a competitive applicant for the law schools I will be applying to. My LSAT score, although respectable, does not entirely show how hard I studied but I digress. The score is adequate enough for me to not register for a third retake so I can focus on getting my application together, which includes a personal statement, letter of recommendations, resume, etc.
I sent in my first law school application to ASU (Arizona State University) law on September 17, 2021 and received my first acceptance on September 27, 2021! I was ecstatic because already my cycle was off to a great start. Not only that but the application fee and the mandatory CAS fee was waived so I didn’t pay a single dime! I could’ve stopped there but I am informed by many prospective students who are also applying this Fall 2022 cycle to apply broadly. I am in the process of finishing up 14 applications. I am thankful for the Lord for putting me in this position to even apply to such prestigious law schools. I do not take this opportunity lightly and I am excited to see what is in store for me when I officially take my first two steps on a campus that has the power to mold me into a lawyer, an honorable one at that. In law school, I do believe I will be intellectually enlightened in ways that I believe cannot be attained in any other field (personal bias). A section of my personal statement pretty much sums it up – “My vision is set on breaking down racial and restrictive barriers that are fortified to inhibit the growth of minority women and men alike. My vision is set on using my abilities to my fullest potential and advocate for those who have been disenfranchised by society and the criminal justice system, so they are able to achieve newfound freedom from the grips of destitution and adversities.” I do believe this is what my destiny entails and the Lord will use me to be a blessing to others. I am ready to receive what the Lord is planning for my future and my faith in Him will exceed my fears when it comes to the challenges I will encounter not only in law school but as a lawyer. I have made it this far and I know this is not by mistake.
I do not want to sound naive or oblivious about the barriers I would have to go through as a black woman but at the same time, it is important that I put my foot down and go after what I want with grit and passion. I cannot allow myself to think pessimistically about my future because I do not want my mentality to waver. I do believe I am destined for great things but I know that my success will not come easy. Some of my battles will be overwhelming and they may put me down temporarily but it is imperative that I am able to come out of that smarter, stronger,and better. The Lord will sustain me through it all because I know whom I have believed. Based on my past experiences, it is not hard for me to see why I feel as strongly as I do when it comes to God. I am thankful and humbled for what I had to endure because if I had not gone through what I did, I wouldn’t have known God the way I do now. And I am still learning so it is a never-ending process.
This blog post is essentially an update with what has been going on in my life and I hope this is the spark I need in order to start posting more. The reason for starting this website was explained on my first ever blog post The Essence of Life, but to reiterate, this is an open book diary that is shared with individuals who are curious about God or who don’t know Him and are willing to engage in conversations that are beneficial for everyone involved. I also want people to share their experiences with me if they choose to, whether it is by email or social media. All in all, life for me in a few months will be marked with new and unique experiences so if need be, I will update anyone interested about what my law school life if requested down the road.
You may leave a comment, question, or suggestion if you want to. Thank you for reading and God bless.
